Sunday, January 09, 2005. Three Men and My Darling. I am dreaming, and in my dream I see three young men sitting around a small table in a large room talking about me. I can only hear fragments of their conversation, but I know somehow I know - that I am the Cherie they are talking about so intently.

Sunday, February 06, 2005. The great lesson life is trying to teach us is Desire. We were meant to want. That is why it is so easy to do. We are born desperate for breath, and we die the same way. Every moment in between, we live wanting something, at least we should. Nothing else is as vital as desire, for if we do not learn to desire, and desire deeply, we will never seek God. That is why God does not worry about the addict. The addict is well on his way to salvation. Want more, much more.

Wednesday, January 05, 2005. It is late, but there is a light flickering in her window. It looks like an invitation, and the Holy Spirit smiles and trembles. The simple symbolism of the flame pushing back the darkness moves him, and for a moment he waits and watches the light. I have no name for what you mean to me,. My blood, my breath, my Self, my progeny. To see you loved as you deserve to be. I name you Jesus, and t.