Scattered thoughts of a grieving mother. I have been posting at my pregnancy blog- which has turned into my family blog. I like having my thoughts all in one place. Remembering Raime Kailani, Elora Jade and Connor Jackson.

This is not what i had planned. Saturday, September 1, 2012. Thursday, September 1, 2011. No cemetary, no grave, no hilltop or ocean to call your own. Just a shelf in my bedroom and, today, a table front in the entryway, that say you were here. Eventhough it is a mere 72 hours later, even today, as I saw the date, August 31, I still found myself stunned. Today marks the fourth year that you have not lived the life you should have had.

Do not judge by mere appearances; for the light laughter that bubbles on the lip often mantles over the depths of sadness, and the serious look may be the sober veil that covers a divine peace and joy. Tuesday, August 3, 2010. It is making me write here. it is bringing me back to this space. It is beginning to be more about her than it was about me.

Trying to figure out life after the death of my daughter, Kamryn Olivia born still at 20 weeks, February 15, 2007. Wednesday, September 24, 2008. Friday, August 15, 2008. I sound like a broken record.