Dedicated to the life and memory of Colin Emanuel Stuart. Friday, July 17, 2015. The more I am at fault, the more I am not at fault. The more I an not at fault, the more I am. So, if you are still reading. what next? I know that I do not post often and I have withdrawn from the SIDS community, but if this or any other post touches or helps you, I am still here. Keep pushing forward, and never be afraid to reach out. no matter what time of day or night.

The life of a SIDS mom. My precious accounts of my memories. All gone! Right now I need to write. Staring at this now full page. Full of thoughts, but still not yet answering the question I meant to write about. 8220;Were you a Christian before she died? See when someone.

I feared that people would forget you. Here are a few pictures we took as a family in the fall. May they rest in peace and God bless their souls. What have I become? I spent the better part of three months faking it.

There are days when It really sinks in that I will NEVER see him again. Love, like starlight, never dies. Today is just another sad day without my boy. It has been lovely to have so many people think about him though.

Our story of great loss and great love. This year would have been big for us. you would have been starting kindergarten. I had your whole life mapped out for you. You were going to do big things, my dear. none of which were posted by me.

This blog is dedicated to my best friend, my son. Sort of happy, anyway.

Thursday, September 27, 2012. My dear amazing friend Andrew is off working and holidaying for 3-4 months. I miss him already! This was our bon voyage - or one of them. He refused to allow me to place a tracking device on him but says he will keep us updated on his whereabouts maybe. Me, Andrew, Jackie, Nicole and Mikey. A great, fun day on a yacht in Sydney Harbour with endless huge prawns and good friends. Tomorrow we move out of the Broome Cupboard that has been my place of work for the last year.