Some are embarrassing, some are perhaps criminal and some are dismal. Sometimes you can keep those secrets hidden and perhaps share it with someone you trust; those select few in your life. But, the secrets that you keep can eat you alive. Well, this is my big secret and perhaps a little weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. In the past 2 years.

Thursday, July 16, 2009. This morning I discovered my beloved in the back yard under a pond liner I had propped up in the back corner. He looked like he was sleeping, but he was gone. He passed away sometime in the early morning. In the end he just looked like he was sleeping, a pastime he loved best. He was often the brightest moment in my day, and in my life.