Ryan Gosling throws a molotov cocktail for New York Magazine, 2010.

If its a scream, then why the fuck cant i hear it? I am no more! Its just pathetic what i have become after constant trauma and marinating in self hatred, doubt etc etc etc. What the fuck i feel guilty about whining. What am i doing here? Pain self doubt pain self doubt pain self doubt pain self doubt hatred scum pain pain pain gloom glum. And i want nothing to do with them! Scream shri.

Thursday, January 8, 2009. I have started a new job which is awesome. I have a great team and a brand new property we are opening in Lafayette, LA. It is incredibly hard work but it is also very fulfilling. Wednesday, December 10, 2008. His message tonight was on changing seasons in life. Was there anyone else in the room? I know that I was certainly meant to hear this one. 5 Preparations of the heart, for a change in season.

Kissing is a means of getting two people so close together, that they canâ t see anything wrong with each other. Washed my hair and felt better. Walked across the brooklyn bridge in the pouring rain. Walked all through brooklyn, in the pouring rain. Ate shake shack and enjoyed. Had a glass of wine at the brass monkey. Was unsuccessful at getting dessert. Was woken up by mice, scared to death, laughed back to sleep.

With shawls, size does matter; I like them huge. And I also like them in speckle-dyed yarn and garter stitch. The Striped Esjan pattern by Stephen West has some additional lace knitting besides the garter stitch, but nothing too complicated, and I love the enormous holes created by multiple yarn-overs.