On November 15, 2009, my seemingly normal and all to boring life came to a screeching halt. My first born child and only son, Erik, died after sustaining fatal injuries in a freak four - wheeler accident. This blog is an open and honest encounter into my life without him. Friday, September 20, 2013.

My brush with an angel. I have been going to a lot of non-stress appointments the last few weeks. I was waiting for my appointment yesterday. My kids were goofing off in the waiting room. I was telling them to calm down when someone caught my eye. A tear-streaked woman being escorted by a nurse into the fetal monitoring office. I wanted to run over to her and hug her. As I sit in the .

So where am I though? We are .

Thursday, July 3, 2014. In case you are not familiar with the grumpies in a two year old, they are quite unpleasant as there is no reasoning with the cute tiny being. Heading into town, I thought to myself, I will accomplish all I need to do while I am out! And because I needed to be sure the collar that we bought fit him accordingly. Someone never heard of birth control. The old man smugly says. So maybe, as moms and dads, .

Sunday, February 5, 2012. How can you measure a year? Would you know my name? If I saw you in heaven? Would it be the same. If I saw you in heaven? Would you hold my hand. If I saw you in heaven? Would you help me stand. If I saw you in heaven? Time can bring you down,. Time can bend your knees. Time can break your heart,. Have you begging please, begging please.

Wednesday, June 27, 2012. Friday, June 15, 2012. Thursday, June 14, 2012.

Journey of Loss, Hope, and Faith. Wednesday, August 15, 2012. He is getting better with sleeping on his own in the crib at four months now. What a big boy! He is a handful though - probably because he is a BOY! Friday, June 8, 2012. Crystal Theresa from These Fragments, I love. And Dana from Butterflies and Rainbows. It has been a .

Sunday, November 18, 2012. First off my two beautiful living children are well and healthy. M is now 4 and my rainbow V is 16 months. I still get little hellos from heaven. This frog, my students named Hoppy, was hanging outside my classroom window. I loved it! Although I have become a single working mom, I now cherish the time I do have with my kids that much more. A basketball team that takes the class for cardio and my two zumba buddies. GO HEAT! My Best friend Lydia.

Sunday, July 5, 2015. I just heard him in the living room encouraging his daddy. Saturday, April 25, 2015. What does my day look like? Well, there you have it.