June 26, 2012 in Uncategorized. May 4, 2012 in Uncategorized. Woke up to a tiny laughing face. February 25, 2012 in sleep. On the counter and the stove as I slip in the leftovers, it is the clanging crazy of a dumptruck or ancient elevator. He sleeps on, though, somehow. Just like right now, with Phish on at a good volume, he swings in the swing. Oh shit, abrupt stop to music! February 23, 2012 in baby.

September 24, 2012 in anniversary. This is a post that has been swirling around my head for weeks now. Time is a major factor now, choices have to be made when I have a few minutes of free time. But today, writing this post is most important. Tomorrow we will go plant some bulbs at the tree, because we need to honor our little Silas wit.

July 29, 2016 by janistan. The girls want to arrange all the cranes into some form or shape. So I may take another photo later today, after we are done folding for the last time. Nine things I learned since July 29, 2007. Some days feel so light, as if a storm never ever descended. And then the heavy hands of grief come and grab you, from behind, right on the thro.

Old dog, meet new trick. Miscarriage is not for wimps. I thought that I was a wimp, but then I taught four 75-minute classes yesterday, came home, cooked dinner, played with Dot, and only cried for about 5 minutes in the bathroom. This morning, I led a work meeting and cancelled my ultrasound appointment. Pregnant, but only sort of. My inner bitch is a She-Hulk.

I used to be a mom of four. Then my youngest died at the age of 12 months. Thursday, June 4, 2009. I became pretty much consumed with reading these suddenly new and interesting topics. I wonder, is this my new reality? Well, my u.

Maintaining sanity while the world rages. Posted by christypintucks in Uncategorized. This is a blog that I started, as anyone still reading will know, before Oliver was born and died. And after Oliver died it became the place I came to to work through some of that. Maybe avoid mentioning this space in the comments? And also, a very big and devoted thank you to everyone who read, who commented, who walked with me during this particular window of time.