Monday, February 21, 2011. They called me at noon to give me the news. 308! Now, I expected to be over the moon excited. And unwilling to jump up and down with exhilaration. Paused my happiness until I knew more.

But our story has gone on and I find I want to tell it. Big honking fibroids; myomectomy. Yes, no, who the hell knows? This is where I get stuck. Because how do I tell it? The nurse did a quick test and said I was pregnant. She was thinking ectopic because of all the sc.

Friday, October 7, 2011. And you would be right. Saturday, July 16, 2011.

With A Few Roadblocks and Detours Along The Way. The Race is Not Always To The Swift . Tuesday, August 13, 2013. OK, I admit to feeling sheepish. I just know I need to write, especially about things requiring a safe place to talk about them. So that left Nate and I, b.

Heading towards the wrong side of 35 with no baby in sight. Thursday, August 16, 2012. Yeah, I totally suck.

College degree - check, job - check, husband, masters degree, check, check. Infertility - check, miscarriage - check, check. Everything in my life was in perfect order until we began our quest to have a baby. Follow my journey here as I grapple with the shocking reality that I am not in control of all things. Friday, March 4, 2011. Tuesday, February 8, 2011.

Birthday my little love! I truly cannot believe how fast this year has gone, my baby is one today. It has been a big learning curve year for me, getting used to life with two children and getting to know you and your own likes and dislikes. You have made it as easy as any baby could though as you have been a very happy, mild mannered baby. You have won hearts everywhere you go, with your big brown eyes and your constant smile. Xavier has found a best-friend in you. No one cheers you up quite like Xavier.