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The future is bright, the future is sober. I am a forty something, happily married mum of two. On 31 March 2016, after many failed attempts over several years, I finally quit drinking. I started this blog during my second month without alcohol. Now in December 2016,I am approaching 9 months without a drink. Click follow to share my journey. I would love you to join me.

These are the words I used to justify drinking. In the sober light of day, and with a clear mind, I can see how twisted and deluded and tragic these words are. They are the words of a sick mind, overtaken by alcohol. It will train the mind to attack itself, like a cancer of the soul.

I wrote this introduction and started this blog in September of 2009. 8220; This blog is the tale of a drunk.

Still tired but not a zombie anymore. I am so tired of thinking about drinking and not drinking. So I try not to think about it. Happy to be back to blogging. Missed it so much! September 5, 2016.

I am so sad and tired. I just want to hide all day and sleep. I turned on the fan and left to go bring my son to the store to buy some chips for his choir party. When I came home an hour later it still smelled like smoke and the mess was still there. There is no parenting going on. There is no instruction for these kids and there is no responsibility placed on them to take any action for their messes.

For just over 11 months. That was quite a while back. I was also a bit upset when .

Wednesday, November 9, 2016. Friday, November 4, 2016. Fall is such a beautiful season. The trees are so lovely and it just feels like walking inside of a painting with all of the color and light. My dad was far from perfect, and I have very few illusions about this, but it will never change the fact that above all, he loved me unconditionally, and for that I am so lucky and grateful. And I miss that so much.

I have a full time, successful, fulfilling career; I have three sons, aged 18, 14 and 11 and two beautiful border collies. I have drunk for almost all of my adult life; through triumphs, tragedies, success and failure; when I have been happy and relaxed, and when I have been stressed. Wine has been my constant companion. Gaslighting or gas-lighting is a form of manipulation through persistent denial, misdirec.

The only way out is through. 8230;excited to start listening to these! .