Do you ever feel like this? .

Daha ne kadar tükenebilirim bilmiyorum. Bir sabah kalktı yatağımdan, gitti. Ama ne internet var ne telefon. Sağ salim döner mi? Dönse bizi bulur mu? Seviyorum seni. Birileri bir yerde mum söndürmüşçesine karardı ruhum. Günlerdir o kadar yazasım var.

The More I Wander, The More I Know. The Bund, The Pride of Shanghai. Back at the old time, under all of the stars I promised, I will travel this world.

I finally commited to alcohol free living on Jan 12, 2015. Last night at work, a couple of co-workers were talking about getting beer, going home and kicking back and getting buzzed.

Because I have better things to do. I wanted to stop waking every morning full of self-loathing. I wanted to feel good enough, clear enough to make rational decisions. To walk my dogs, make new friends, build a real life. It seemed like a short and do-able list. Reading it reminded me of my desperate desire for sobriety and the d.